Be Still

I don't know about you, but stillness is hard to come by these days. 

A quick update since I haven't updated this in a few weeks...I'm a married woman!! The day finally and oh so sweetly came, and it was, without exaggeration, the best day of my life. I was surrounded by people who love me and my Husband, I was in my beautiful white dress, and I had the privilege of making a covenant before God to love my best friend as long as we're both breathing. 

And so the adventure begins! 

Get my name legally changed: check. Merge bank accounts: check. Move into new apartment: check. Continue our once-separate lives as one: still working on it. 

I'm sitting here on the one couch we own (which was given to us by some loving people) next to my Husband thinking about the restlessness I see in my heart. I'm not unhappy - far from it! It's been so fun and satisfying to live together and hang out all the time and have the freedom to be completely vulnerable with one another. It's been exciting for me to fill up our kitchen with wedding gifts and begin grocery shopping so I can make him yummy meals. I love organizing and decorating, and it's so wonderful to finally have our own place where we can set things up however we like.

The restlessness is there because that's ALL I've been doing. I've been so caught up in activities and in thinking of endless lists of things that need doing that I'm coming to a forced stopping point. As I furiously cleaned the dishes because it was imperative they be done right away, the verse from Psalm 46 made its way into my consciousness: 

"Be still and know that I am God."

Dishes can wait. Unpacking can wait. Cooking can wait. Schoolwork can wait. The soul that is running off its own strength yet again cannot and should not wait as it approaches the God of the Universe for refueling. When my faith slips from lack of discipline, I get that telltale restlessness in my heart, alerting me to bare my soul to Jesus, and to do it soon. 

If you're like me, and you get that restless, angsty feeling inside...the one where every little annoyance is magnified and you notice sharp words coming from your mouth...go to Jesus and be renewed by Him. He wants to take our burdens for us and give us His, which is light as a feather. 

If I've learned anything so far in my 3 weeks of being a wife, I think this is one of the most important lessons to always remember.